I feel abandoned and alienated just like in the picture. My mind has created a dark atmosphere from my lonliness.
Dear Diary,
Where I once was his ‘dearest partner in greatness’, I am now nothing but just a spectator. Though I want to believe that my husband still loves and respects me, I can’t help but feel alienated from him. Truthfully I am growing tired of his actions. The way he acted at the banquet was quite repulsive. I am repeatedly forced to takeover and cover for his stupid actions. I fear that he will soon expose the truth. I feel a bit regret in myself. Am I the reason for his paranoia? I can’t help but feel that had I not influenced him to kill the former royalty of Scotland, I wouldn’t have acted as the catalyst of his behavior. It worries me how our relationship has changed and continues to change greatly. Our intimacy has disappeared. Once he got the news from the three weird sisters, he immediately wrote to me. I was able to convince him to go through with the murder of Duncan. But now he doesn’t bother to discuss his problems or plans with me. All I get are vague responses. His behavior has caused so much anxiety in me; making me regret my decisions. Becoming the queen of Scotland means nothing when I don’t have the love of my dear king. I expected to feel happy by achieving my ambitions. Not only have I lost the love of my husband, I am filled with regret. The void in my heart still remains empty.
Where I once was his ‘dearest partner in greatness’, I am now nothing but just a spectator. Though I want to believe that my husband still loves and respects me, I can’t help but feel alienated from him. Truthfully I am growing tired of his actions. The way he acted at the banquet was quite repulsive. I am repeatedly forced to takeover and cover for his stupid actions. I fear that he will soon expose the truth. I feel a bit regret in myself. Am I the reason for his paranoia? I can’t help but feel that had I not influenced him to kill the former royalty of Scotland, I wouldn’t have acted as the catalyst of his behavior. It worries me how our relationship has changed and continues to change greatly. Our intimacy has disappeared. Once he got the news from the three weird sisters, he immediately wrote to me. I was able to convince him to go through with the murder of Duncan. But now he doesn’t bother to discuss his problems or plans with me. All I get are vague responses. His behavior has caused so much anxiety in me; making me regret my decisions. Becoming the queen of Scotland means nothing when I don’t have the love of my dear king. I expected to feel happy by achieving my ambitions. Not only have I lost the love of my husband, I am filled with regret. The void in my heart still remains empty.
Love,
Lady Macbeth
By: Kirushanthi R
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